Wow, those cliffs look high!

Wow, those cliffs look high!

Wow, those cliffs look high!

I can not go up on my own, I can not go down, either. I am faced with a decision: Do I trust God or panic?

“With God, all things are possible” is the Word’s response. I have the choice – do I listen to the negative thoughts and voices that are the familiar ones or do I leap out into the void (for all I know) of hope. I will HOPE. I can believe. I choose faith. I choose to believe the positive things about me and my life.

I believe (note present tense) my best days are ahead of me; my future is far from over, God’s plan for me is the same that He has always had, I am not the author and finisher of my own story.

I have always wanted to write stories, however, I have had an unfortunate lack of mental discipline in the past. Sticking to one subject, one idea, one voice is difficult and with ADD in spades, I have more inspiration and shiny objects than can get me off topic than imaginable.

Blogging, for me, is a way to get things out of my head and into the open. I then, perhaps, can avoid my enemy of overindulging in verbiage. Yes, I am back 19 hours later to confirm that verbiage is a word. That question in my head lead me off into many other directions – including the ‘oh shoot, it’s later than I thought, I need to _____________.’

OK, I’ve lost my compelling need to blog for the afternoon. This is it for today. The JOY of the Lord is my strength. From Nehemiah.

Functional Medicine & Spiritual Journey

“The doctor of the future will no longer treat the human frame with drugs, but rather will cure and prevent disease with nutrition.” ~ Thomas Edison

I am a 50 year old woman who went through chemo for Ovarian and Uterine Cancer in 2013. I lived the first 48 or so years abusing the temple of my body instead of honoring it as a finely crafted workmanship made in the image of my Father God.  Having cancer was the easiest part; surviving chemotherapy with the poison in my body was the more difficult. I am working on an attitude of gratitude that I am content with who I am and what I am learning. I cannot control things or make them better by pretending they aren’t hard. I have always had issues back to my earliest childhood. I am a survivor in many ways. At Celebrate Recovery, I am finding tools to ask the Lord Jesus into my dark and scarred places to bring healing and peace. I need to change how I see myself in order to live at peace with myself.  I had the DS surgery for super super morbid obesity and lost over 300 pounds in nine years. This past year, I am experiencing my first struggle with weight in taking off nearly 30 pounds gained since chemotherapy. God is control. I am looking at 2015 to be my best year yet. I am looking to become a healthier person by incorporating healthy thoughts and eating into my recovery.