I can not go up on my own, I can not go down, either. I am faced with a decision: Do I trust God or panic?
“With God, all things are possible” is the Word’s response. I have the choice – do I listen to the negative thoughts and voices that are the familiar ones or do I leap out into the void (for all I know) of hope. I will HOPE. I can believe. I choose faith. I choose to believe the positive things about me and my life.
I believe (note present tense) my best days are ahead of me; my future is far from over, God’s plan for me is the same that He has always had, I am not the author and finisher of my own story.
I have always wanted to write stories, however, I have had an unfortunate lack of mental discipline in the past. Sticking to one subject, one idea, one voice is difficult and with ADD in spades, I have more inspiration and shiny objects than can get me off topic than imaginable.
Blogging, for me, is a way to get things out of my head and into the open. I then, perhaps, can avoid my enemy of overindulging in verbiage. Yes, I am back 19 hours later to confirm that verbiage is a word. That question in my head lead me off into many other directions – including the ‘oh shoot, it’s later than I thought, I need to _____________.’
OK, I’ve lost my compelling need to blog for the afternoon. This is it for today. The JOY of the Lord is my strength. From Nehemiah.