Hair – Three Weeks Into Chemo

Well… I think it’s starting to happen. I could just be imagining it, but,I don’t think so. Was super tired this morning,and had the worse headache so far.

I slept longer, had a quieter day with friends, but tonight, after dinner, my scalp started tingling and as I ran my fingers through my hair, I could feel some strands coming out. Oh well, it is what it is, I am not super freaked but, i really had rather hoped and prayed to avoid this particular side effect. Later on, it is more definite, it is happening, ugh.

Tomorrow is 3 weeks out from Chemo and Dr. Ram told me it might happen around this time. My DH’s ideal response was “I will love you no matter what”; he makes life so much easier. Besides Jesus,Douglas is my rock.

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Friends

Thank God for my dear friends.

Today I went to my District Office. I found out my donated sick leave runs out on April 29th, 2013. This necessitated filling out the official paperwork for Medical Leave (without pay) that will begin April 30th, 2013, and goes for the rest of this school year. That will take me out of my current school and classroom placement. This means I will need to go and clean out my things from the classroom probably before the end of the school year. It’s hard to think about, but when I start Medical Leave, it will probably be time. That may mean a small storage unit or something until the future is clearer. Chemo will not end until well after the end of the school year and I have other health issues to deal with, as well. I did complete my intent form today, for next year, so at least that is out of the way, too.

The reason I mention friends is that my dear friend Laura met with me, knowing this whole situation is anxiety causing, and basically held my hand and walked me through it with the lovely lady in the medical leave department. Jacki in the leave department has been exceptionally helpful, and Laura has, herself, dealt with going on Personal Leave to take care of her ill father after he fell and broke his hip. I admit, I teared up and cried today while feeling overwhelmed with the whole work anxiety/fear thing. BUT, once again, God is in control and I MUST let Him be in charge and TRUST that He has better things in store for my future.

I have teacher friends that are willing to come and give their precious time to help me get things packed up and out of the classroom, and that means so very much to me. Teachers understand how much the pressure has been increasing over the past few years. I pray for my other teacher friends who also have had health issues or who are just feeling the strain, no matter what state they are in.

For me, in the past year especially, friends from all over have come out of the woodwork. Friends I haven’t seen much since childhood, ones that I have only known in the past year, and ones that have been there all along, or are only a phone call away. They have encouraged and reminded me of how they love me, just as I am, with all my quirks and lifelong foibles. I am blessed to be able to have friends that, even though we may not connect often, whenever we talk, it is like we had just spoken yesterday. I am blessed to know so many good people. I am thankful for my friends.

As far as how I am feeling, I am now trying another med that may help with the ADD and sleep. I have been very tired, and have been dealing with what I have come to call my Chemo headache. I don’t know if anyone has felt it quite this way, but it is like at the edges of my head and neck, like the trace of a headache, but not like a full blown one. My head is just kinda achy in spots. Maybe that has to do with the brain swelling that chemo can cause. I also heard from my doc to not take too many herbal things because they might interact and actually lessen the effects of the Chemo, which, obviously, wouldn’t be good. I want this be the one and only time, God willing, that I ever have to go through the Chemo process.

Right now, it is time to enjoy the rest of the day with my husband. Doctor’s and other appointments are done for the week hooray!

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The Road Goes Ever, Ever On

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On day 2 post chemo, it is going well. Aside from a little sun sensitivity, I am feeling good. I am praying it will continue being a breeze to ride through.

It was a lovely day today, I read a book, accompanied my DH to an Italian Deli, he wanted an eggplant roll but they didn’t have any in the case. I got one chicken apple sausage link and then we both had snacks in Costco. Ate GF all day. Didn’t exercise today, we went to see The Call with Halle Berry, it was early enough that I was in bed just after 8pm.

Last night, I did get out on the E Lake Mead to Northshore Road to Boulder City and then home. Scarlett got her 3000th mile. I am hoping for 2000 more by June 1st. Riding Scarlett is such a blast, she makes me feel strong, that the Cancer is just a bump on the road and that I will ride right over it. Riding a motorcycle is just such freedom and I feel empowered. Just call me Red! I pray my hair will come back in red and curly, but not very likely.

OK, we started with a picture of a road, let’s end with a road picture! Goodnight.

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Functional Medicine & Spiritual Journey

“The doctor of the future will no longer treat the human frame with drugs, but rather will cure and prevent disease with nutrition.” ~ Thomas Edison

I am a 50 year old woman who went through chemo for Ovarian and Uterine Cancer in 2013. I lived the first 48 or so years abusing the temple of my body instead of honoring it as a finely crafted workmanship made in the image of my Father God.  Having cancer was the easiest part; surviving chemotherapy with the poison in my body was the more difficult. I am working on an attitude of gratitude that I am content with who I am and what I am learning. I cannot control things or make them better by pretending they aren’t hard. I have always had issues back to my earliest childhood. I am a survivor in many ways. At Celebrate Recovery, I am finding tools to ask the Lord Jesus into my dark and scarred places to bring healing and peace. I need to change how I see myself in order to live at peace with myself.  I had the DS surgery for super super morbid obesity and lost over 300 pounds in nine years. This past year, I am experiencing my first struggle with weight in taking off nearly 30 pounds gained since chemotherapy. God is control. I am looking at 2015 to be my best year yet. I am looking to become a healthier person by incorporating healthy thoughts and eating into my recovery.