Thank God for my dear friends.
Today I went to my District Office. I found out my donated sick leave runs out on April 29th, 2013. This necessitated filling out the official paperwork for Medical Leave (without pay) that will begin April 30th, 2013, and goes for the rest of this school year. That will take me out of my current school and classroom placement. This means I will need to go and clean out my things from the classroom probably before the end of the school year. It’s hard to think about, but when I start Medical Leave, it will probably be time. That may mean a small storage unit or something until the future is clearer. Chemo will not end until well after the end of the school year and I have other health issues to deal with, as well. I did complete my intent form today, for next year, so at least that is out of the way, too.
The reason I mention friends is that my dear friend Laura met with me, knowing this whole situation is anxiety causing, and basically held my hand and walked me through it with the lovely lady in the medical leave department. Jacki in the leave department has been exceptionally helpful, and Laura has, herself, dealt with going on Personal Leave to take care of her ill father after he fell and broke his hip. I admit, I teared up and cried today while feeling overwhelmed with the whole work anxiety/fear thing. BUT, once again, God is in control and I MUST let Him be in charge and TRUST that He has better things in store for my future.
I have teacher friends that are willing to come and give their precious time to help me get things packed up and out of the classroom, and that means so very much to me. Teachers understand how much the pressure has been increasing over the past few years. I pray for my other teacher friends who also have had health issues or who are just feeling the strain, no matter what state they are in.
For me, in the past year especially, friends from all over have come out of the woodwork. Friends I haven’t seen much since childhood, ones that I have only known in the past year, and ones that have been there all along, or are only a phone call away. They have encouraged and reminded me of how they love me, just as I am, with all my quirks and lifelong foibles. I am blessed to be able to have friends that, even though we may not connect often, whenever we talk, it is like we had just spoken yesterday. I am blessed to know so many good people. I am thankful for my friends.
As far as how I am feeling, I am now trying another med that may help with the ADD and sleep. I have been very tired, and have been dealing with what I have come to call my Chemo headache. I don’t know if anyone has felt it quite this way, but it is like at the edges of my head and neck, like the trace of a headache, but not like a full blown one. My head is just kinda achy in spots. Maybe that has to do with the brain swelling that chemo can cause. I also heard from my doc to not take too many herbal things because they might interact and actually lessen the effects of the Chemo, which, obviously, wouldn’t be good. I want this be the one and only time, God willing, that I ever have to go through the Chemo process.
Right now, it is time to enjoy the rest of the day with my husband. Doctor’s and other appointments are done for the week hooray!